school's reopening tmr. thats fast. i wonder how 4 weeks in the holidays pass so quickly while 2 weeks in the school term actually seemed like ages. monday morning assembly's gonna be scary. =/ the school would surely look down on us even more. haha. this would probably be the end of my 'posting marathon'. hadn't been posting so much till the hols. haha. and after this post, everything else you see on this blog would be all over again be about band. not that it is not now.
haha. what did i say about week 4 being the 'chionging week'? i think week 4 day 7 is the 'super duper chionging day'.

i'm glad about that.

Ended my post @ 2:04 PM

i dont care and i dont want to care about it. leave and never come back. I'd be glad.

This is real. So real that I'm feeling afraid.

afraid you would be gone and never be back. afraid to lose you. afraid you'd leave me behind, struggling to break free. I'm afraid...

[dont bother to try understand]

Ended my post @ 2:07 PM

im so tired. couldnt think of what i did today which made me so tired.
i feel as if my legs do not belong to mine. haha. i've lost my support and had to struggle to get myself up.
hohoho... band today lar.
went there a little earlier to prac. changed to evonne's tuba and it is HEAVY but a better tone i guess. elaine said so. thats why she wanted me to change to hers
drills ar. i kiap 20 cent and it dropped and i lost it. i'd rather donate it to the squad fund then losing it! lol..okok. fine. =(
ar.... i'd survive homework. i guess. not trying to think that theres a horrible math test waiting ahead. i couldnt find my last year dnt stuff and i forgot how to draw whatever view for the dumb math assignment. many agreed that is is horrible okay. wonder who was the one with the great mind who could manage to think this to torture us.
i thought only uniform groups' training camps would think of all sort of ways to torture the people. shermaine said so. haha. after telling me that they had to label alllll the this. including undergarments. haha.

miss sia scolded et once again. =( she said we are not clear. hoho. is my fault. i know. but evonne's tuba made me improve. at least it is not as horrible as b4. even ayu said im not clear.
ah..and im not going to forget how she stood behind me and listen. phew.. lucky i survived. lucky it is grease we are playing! hanukkah's gonna kill. big fun was better.much.

someone stole my legs and i'll make sure the police catches the culprit! :(

Ended my post @ 7:13 PM

finally a day that i can stay at home. in case you've not noticed, i guess i've not been a home for a full day since... since.... i dont know. but today is one of the few days that i can stay at home. and i guess i didnt make good use of it to try complete my left over work. well...maybe i did. but that work is not homework. but still, none is completed. both Work and Homework.
i found my chi and i'm so happy. i hate hunting alright.
i'm flying tmr night. flying to...somewhere near. sentosa. ha...joking. not funny.
wont be back till this auspicious day called the 19th of june. and sad to say i would only be back at night.10pm i heard that guy say. i wasn't paying much attention to this tour. i dont really care. except for the fact that i get to scuba dive or go snorkeling. and also...i get to miss band! :p

hahaha. and i hate to say this. but Miss Sore Throat seriously loves me so much she often come visit me this few days. leave and come leave and come. thanks for loving chocolate all of a sudden.
im too lazy to pack.
the following is crap. please ignore.

i feel drowsy.
but i cant sleep in peace.
i want to say bye.
but i cant say bye.
i am still waiting.
but i cant wait.
i have to go.
i need to go.
but i dont want to go.
i wish...i wish my wish would come true.

Ended my post @ 10:03 PM

went to the zoo with squad today. okay la. quite fun.
but it is super tiring and hot. a few things screwed.
but jingwen came! ah ping and niece were late. tsktsk.
hahaha.
went to the amk hub with kia and sexy chio bu regina.
hahaha. chat for quite some time la. very funny.
when we left the food court kia was like: eh...now no more charlyne but change to regina pei2 wo3 men2.
hahahaha. dont be sad charlyne. we still love you.
=)

Ended my post @ 12:50 AM

i remembered i was in a terribly horribly foul mood in the morning.
super duper irritated and pissed. cause my mummy called home and told me some stuff which she didnt tell me before hand before i planned my day. so ya. i had to change a little. some stuff were screwed. but we had fun.
hahahaha. i like shopping in fair price with pals. woohoo... so fun. =) except for the fact that i have to pay for the stuff i want myself instead of my parents. ha.....
sandwich making session. dont worry squad. we wont poison you. =)
chengmeimei ah ping kia ayu a new friend called MARIA[lingling] and i went to kia's house to do those stuff. haha. maria happen to be from northland too! a year younger than me. cool eh?
the chatting session after it was extremely funny and fun. hahahaha.
maria ling ling is ah ping's niece. =)
excited for zooooooooooooooo tmr! =)

but ayu wont be there =(

Ended my post @ 9:51 PM

i am scared. i am afraid. i am traumatized!
i cant believe i just did what i did.
i and i feel so dumb and stupid about it. omg.
i seriously think i AM landiao.
kia, you can continue saying i am landiao. i wont deny it anymore.
just dont say 'just like char' can liao

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
talking about 'char'
kia and i went to northpoint food court. i ate this wanton char siew thing. kia ate laksa.
then when we found a wonderful spot and sat down. i started to mix a little of the sauce with my noodles. that reminded me of the previous time when we went to visit celeste when she was sick. charlyne and i ate the same thing.
after mixing the noodles i took a bite and looked up. and guess what i saw.
"CHAR TAO KUEY"
omg. i nearly poo my mouth of noodles out. though i choked a little and started giggling and laughing without any reason.
then kia gave me this ' what thing?!' look.
and i pointed to "CHAR TAO KUEY"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. okay. i find the shop name damn funny lar.
people cai tao kuey or char kuey tiao one what. where got
CHAR TAO KUEY?!?!?!?!
okay lar. maybe have. but i'm still amused by.... CHAR tao kuey. read it as charlyne that char.
omg lar. so funny!! hahahaha. okay. i told sarah koh that and she said i have a weird sense of humor. hohohohoho
hahahahahahaha. that shop name made my day.
hahahahahahaha.
not forgetting the fact that i'm still a little traumatized by some stuff.
eek >.<

Ended my post @ 9:17 PM

i feel rather dumb and stupid.
wait and wait and wait. what am i waiting for.
not the bus nor the rain to stop.
i just feel so dumb to wait and wait. knowing fully well it would not arrive.
i've tried to get myself to stop waiting. but i cant.
i dont know why i just love to wait.
and when i dont get it at the end of the day. i feel sad. feel miserable.
but once again. the next day.. i start to wait and wait again.
i'm probably the dumbest person every survived.
doing something that i know would definitely not succeed and would at the same time make me feel horrible. who on the right mind would do such a thing.
RIGHT! RIGHT! i'm so dumb. oh my gosh. I FEEL SO DUMB!
but i bet i'd start waiting again tmr.
poooo......................!!!
why did i catch this disease.....
talking about it i've got sore throat again. Miss Sore Throat brought along her boyfriend to visit me. and his name is Mr Fever. wonder if he is handsome.
ha....handsome like char.

Ended my post @ 10:55 PM

i'm working on a very very very important erm...important...er.... I DONT KNOW.
i only know that this is tedious and requires much thought. but i like it. =)
i cant wait to see the end product. deadline is not that soon yet. =)
my master piece has yet to come.
muahahahahahaha...

Ended my post @ 3:52 PM

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..... i cant stop giggling or laughing. hahahahahaha. hahahahahahahhahahahaha! hahahahaha..omg...hahahahaha. i dont know why. hahahahahaha.
anti laughing pills anyone? hahahahahaha

Ended my post @ 10:20 PM

choco obsession!
if you know we well enough i dont really fancy chocolate. thats history.
the me today loves chocolate. cookies and creme choco and dark choco and hazel nutty choco.
not too sweet still though. the reason i dont LOVE and willing to DIE for choco was because of the over sweetness in them. it gives your throat this goooie feeling after completing the munch.
that goes the same for all other sweet stuff.

cookies and creme choco: eat them when i'm rather high. feeling light and floaty.
dark choco: eat them when i'm sort of low. feeling heavy and sinking.
hazel nutty choco: eat them when i'm sort of... erm... random?!
who cares.
caramel choco is nice too. but a little too sweet. i saw this dark choco sneaker bar at 7/11 the other day. shall go try it.
ah oh. would grow fat.
chocolate makes me happy. =) especially the dark one. hershey's cookies 'n' creme

woohoo...random post...

Ended my post @ 11:56 AM

now it's your turn.
checkmate.
i think you've got me.
well done. I've lost. nice game.
you've fooled me all along by letting me think that I'm winning.
i've taken the precautions now. i've learnt my mistakes. set for another game
if there's even any....

Ended my post @ 9:28 PM

kialin // im in the middle of nowhere. says:
aiyo now i scared of you leh
kialin // im in the middle of nowhere. says:
first time since i know you worhs

haha. funny. band today was screwed. a new piece. no evonne no elaine no charlyne. only cheryl choo and myself. brr...... VERY scary. sight reading. from young, my sight reading sucks. including this year at this moment at this point. right................................. so screwed. i only can count. but i cant play. great. although miss sia didnt really scold tuba much due to the fact that she is most probably concentrating on the trumpet. who cares about tuba anyway. soft and low. just the beats.

ha.......School again tmr morning. sucks. man.... i need a little teeny weeny bit more sleep. give me a break pal. haha.

Ended my post @ 11:21 PM

ouch. it hurts.
it broke. a lump. painful.
wonder where i got it injured.
i forgot. and i'm dont want to remember.
what are you thinking of?

ouch. it hurts.
the tiny capillaries broke. have a lump on my shin. painful.
i wonder where i knocked it.
i dont recall. and i dont want to cause i know i'd never succeed.

does it make a difference
dont think too much.
ha.................

everything is screwed up. i feel like poo...
my leg hurts. my stomach's giving me stupid problems. feeling so dead damn exhausted and tired. so much to do. so little done. so much to care. nothing i can handle. school's like everyday. i'm not in the level which has plenty of extra lessons.but i'm like seeing school more than extra lesson-ers. irritated. unfairness. scared. frightened. lost. worried. remorseful.

so what, if there isn't any blood.so what, if my sore throat got better. so what, if there 's the toilet bowl for me. so what, if i have a bed. so what, if i have planned everything out. so what, if i'm concerned. so what, if i love the memories held in the school. so what, if i've done my fair share. so what, if i've thought positive. so what, if i have a compass. so what, if i've apologized. so what, they don't help. at all. i'm still here. feeling miserable. indulging in self pity. dont know what to do next.

i need jack sparrow's compass to tell me where to go, what to do next.

i love My Motivation. but it's not there anymore.

something is stuck in my brain. i wonder how i can ever get it out. rather difficult. operation wont help. i guess. i need some cure. medicine anyone?

ps: don't try comforting me. that's not the cure.

Ended my post @ 8:55 PM

yeah! i'm not sad anymore. i'm still thinking why. i guess i got the answer.

Ended my post @ 11:33 PM

screwed it.
finally understood why kia said i'm lan diao.
but this time i'm far worse than charlyne. though kia says i'm as lan diao as her.

Ended my post @ 11:19 PM

sniff sniff.
nope i'm not sobbing.
sniff sniff.
yar. i'm a little sick.
cough cough.

i dont sound good.
haha. kia and i went in the rain once again. cause we both forgot to bring the um ba la la.
poo....... cant wait for sch tmr.
HCJC BAND CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

Ended my post @ 9:59 PM

right. the late morning.
about the SUPER early morning.
haha. mahjong session online.
charlyne jingwen i. and some other dont know people.
quite funny. charlyne and i chok one table. only the two of us. no one else.
we wanted the whole table to be 'known' people so we could talk and play instead of just playing.
but we couldn't think of anyone else!
so we waited. and every stranger that came into the table. left within.....seconds.
then we went through the list of online people and decided to get jingwen to play with us. 3 of us. still lack of 1 more.
charlyne die also dont want ask Darling. or...she said she didnt dare. lol.
people shy ma..so okay lor. nvm.
hahahahahahahaha..oops. XD
blah blah blah.........

not nice to blog about le la.
oh. and i didnt win any game at all while charlyne won 2. beginner wor!!
li hai right.
hahaha

'hi. im a beginner from thailand. how about you?'
'hi. me too. beginner from africa.'
'beginner. india'
'hongkong.beginner'
all together "YA RIGHT. beginner..."

oops. creating my own story again. haha. but that was what i have in my mind when one of the unknown player said he/she's from thailand.

my throat's killing me. haha. argh.
haaa.............. going out soon.
to somewhere near the who's boarding school.

Ended my post @ 11:00 AM

late at night. SUPER early in the morning.
i shall post again later in the morning which would be rather early.

Ended my post @ 1:45 AM

haha. if you understand the previous post you must be a erm..... i dont know. some one who understands me REAL well? there shouldn't be such a person alive. cause i don't even know myself well enough. hey. i must start work tmr morning. i hope i'll succeed. slack week is coming to an end. and since next monday and tuesday and wednesday there's sort of.....some events... i shall use sat and sun to replace. which is....rather sad.
but oh wells.... what can i do. i want to slack on week 4. so i have to start tmr. or i'll be finding myself in piles of homework again on week 4.
week 4= chiong week no more!!
yeah. so that i can go out in week 4 =)

something real funny.
my mummy: does that senior charlyne like girls?
me: huh..no mummy. why did you say that?
mummy: she looks like...... does she like girls?
me: no la?!?! she likes guys okay.

not the first time she asked me that.

another scene

charlyne's mummy: are you les?
char: no. i'm not.
mummy: [took over the cell phone] who is this. your gf ar?
char: [blah blah. dunno what she said]
mummy: [reading through massages]
...........................................interval..................................................................
mummy: lesbian ar?!
char: ....

modified version la. something like that. so funny lar. hahahahahaha.

Ended my post @ 12:43 AM

anything under the sun.
i'm feeling real random now.
i feel rather lost and confused.
still trying to figure out...hm.. why.
it's time. let go. think out of the box.
the past. never the present nor the future.
it's just memory. reflection. treasure box. or perhaps...

hey. the one over the phone was really nice.
not the one in my cell phone.

i shall prepare to leave.


for lunch/school.
squad self prac. i think.
prac not for the current.
for the future.
2 years are not long.
2 years are short.

Ended my post @ 11:16 AM